Christmas was a blur unfortunately, lots of traveling. We slept away from home eight nights in a row. Oak held up really well. He adjusts to everything so quickly, certainly makes life easier on us. This year brought a different feeling for me in Christmas with the loss of Grandma and the arrival of Oak, the feeling was a mix of loss and joy. It was incredibly different not having Christmas the same as it always has been for my entire life, that Christmas Eve buzz and the anticipation and the laughter that filled the air. The laughter always being associated with Grandma. But this year with that loss came a new kind of laughter one provided by Oak's Lil noises, faces and reactions to the overwhelming surroundings. I will admit that this Christmas was a lot harder than i thought it would be. New faces have come into our lives and the adjustment is not smooth by any means, but through Christ and through careful assessment of His plan i think transition will come but on every one's own terms and time frame, respecting that will be key. Holidays will always be tough but there are too many pieces of her around Oak and I for us to not know her. The people, their smiles, words and kindness can't help but rekindle all that I had with Grandma and as Oak grows he will come to know that all of us were impacted by her actions and words, and a piece of her exists in all of us. Enough so that Oak will know her without ever knowing her...
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